Number One.

There are moments in my life when I want to be unbreakable, because everything is capable of breaking me. I long for the past life that I once had, but it's something that's out of my reach. I am frozen, I am lost in the life that I have created for myself now in this day. I crave the unthinkable and sleep doesn't come naturally. I lost everything, I lost you from the very start and I lost my best friend to. I'm unknown to the good, and only known to the bad. The worlds most addictive and horrible things seek me out, they find me in my darkest moments, in my happiest times. They know when to grab onto me and sometimes I would like to let go of it all, but something is stopping me.